It seems

moving on is staying still. like ladders are fine things if you aren't scared of heights.

I like walls. I now have some red ones around me. nice. 8 hours or so has been good. I find my self intensely looking at people while they talk to me , not really comprehending the fact I do not know them. Three years could do that to you I suppose.
You know everyone. You can even hear them think. places have a tendency to grow on u . Run , grasshopper, RUN !!!

A guy I've known for sometime , but never spoken to, came in selling cake. Always thought he is Indian. it seems he is not .

New place. Fresh start. or not. same old. same old ? I can almost see myself walking in to a rut and liking it.

One needs escape

not from the long tedious five days of work, or the busy Saturday spent trying to catch up with your own life and it's chores but from Sundays.

I'm not particularly religious. so that won't save me. my mother's place is too far.

The saner people are asleep it seems and the insomniacs have over crowded the beaches.

I, having nowhere else to go, escape to my 3 by 2. The walls of office must surely miss me.

and then, without notice, whithout asking, a friend drops by. He brings a tub of chocolate ice cream and a smile.

Sometimes, it's only a friend who can save you.

Commitment Issues

My commitment issues are so severe that I can't ( even ) commit to my own medicine.

( that poor bastard. never stood a chance )

Anyways, the thing being, I completely quit after the fourth day.

I would come home after work, tired and everything but the medicine would be sitting there, in the middle of the living room table as if..as if it owned me.

So I quit.

oh to hell with it !

Don't you

just love it when you put your hands in your pockets and your fingers find something and you pull it out and it's , gasp ! a 20. or a 50 ???? :D

quotes

" Don't take life too seriously. you will never get out of it alive"

- Bugs Bunny -

Excerpts from The Noblest Revenge

by Dr Frank Crane. First published in 1924 in his book of essays, Upper Meanings.

Dr Frank Crane ( 1861 - 1928 ) was a Presbyterian minister,a speaker and a columnist.

The don'test of all don'ts is : Don't get even. The greatest of all time wasting is time wasted on revenge...

When you want to hurt him who has hurt you, you want something that irritates you while you want it, disappoints you when you get it, and makes you feel mean after it is all over.

You can't get through life without meeting people who injure you. There are those that snub you, those that betray you, those that cheat you, those that envy you, besides all the swarm of spiteful , malicious, weak and venomous human mosquitoes, worms and wasps.

If you stop and chase each of these to punish them you will have no time for anything else.

If you allow yourself to think of them they will poison you until your mind is as sour as buttermilk, your sleep ruined, and your hours of leisure turned from content to wretchedness,

Forget it !

...

doubtless your enemy needs a thrashing. But what's that to you? The question is what do You need?? You need peace of mind, poise, and contentment. to keep thinking about him is to upset yourself.

When a man wrongs us, let is simply drop him. He is out of our lives., Good - Bye ! There are plenty of others. As far as we are concerned, he is an undesirable citizen, and that's all there is to it. Next !

Why redress injuries. they redress themselves automatically better than we can redress them.


When a man does dirt, he gets dirt, by and by. Let him alone. why bother?

Into what horrors of suffering has the desire for revenge plunged the world. look at hideous Europe now. the mountains of mangled bodies piled on altars of revenge.

When Jesus said that about turning the other cheek, he was not speaking of impossible idealism. but plain sense.

An injury can only grieve us only when remembered,. the noblest revenge therefore, is to forget.

How the rain last night?

3.30 am. Woke up and sat up at the same time. "Stop the noise! stop the darned noise!!"

Thunder. and lightening. Sudden realisation . Rain.

Got up to draw the curtains and close the windows, switch off the fan.

Went back to bed but lay awake for a few minutes..

My head..My head..omg..it's back..stayed perfectly still hoping it would go away and I would fall asleep..Hope is quite a useless thing.

Found Panadol.

no sleep.