In tribute to a goodbye

we went round in circles..we also went back and forth..we pulled in different dimensions..we loved each other..hated too..we wouldn't let each other go, we wouldn't let us stay..it was partly my fault but I blamed you instead..

In the end, when it is good bye, when we both mean it ( or i wonder whether u just stopped fighting ), friendship seems an impossibility but someday seems like a promise.

one of them sundays

they were sitting in a corner..she ran her fingers through her long beautiful hair and slowly shook it so that it would fall on her back ..he stared . his eyes widening in awe...

my friend looked at me and rolled her eyes and i pretended to throw up for a second..

I say, what's up with these Sundays??

Twilight

"You have got to be kidding me!!!!" I found myself exclaiming out loud when I read Edward Cullen did not come back. But what did I know, I was only at page 32.

Took me 2 days to read through 'Twilight' and 'New moon'..'Eclipse' took longer.

"What. a. load of bull" the normal me would have said. 'would have' being the two key words there. The vampire in love, the werewolf best friend and the damsel in distress was enough to make anyone throw up. but dang !!! i was way too infatuated with the vampire myself..the weirdest thing, i found myself even day dreaming about Edward. Apparently i am not the only one.

In the end, I realised it was not so much the plot but Edward Cullen himself who kept me glued to the books. and a good thing too. He kept me distracted from my own self.

random goodbyes.

"Richard Parker has stayed with me. I've never forgotten him.Do i dare say i miss him?I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love.Such is the strangeness of the human heart.I still don;t understand how he could abandon me so unceremoniously, without any sort of goodbye, without looking back even once"

Yann Martel - Life of Pi


Hits home every time. ( even though they are talking about a tiger )

Simplicity

Simplicity to me was an acoustic concert hosted by TNL radio about one and half years back in Mount Lavinia, where Marsh Dodanwela and Ranil played and sang like Gods of local rock ( I remember specifically, they played The Pot by Tool and it was gooood ) , and there was the beach and the bonfires and a tall dorky person ( who would later be no one to me) somewhere in the picture..

Simplicity to me was also Mount Lavinia, 8 years ago, when we would walk home from the town itself...when we passed underneath the Boganwila tree in the Templers road and befriended three strangers (who would later disappear completely out of our lives,) it was when the poya days were spent in the beach and everyone sat down to dinner together..


Simplicity to me was also when there were acres and acres of paddy fields all around me and me and the dog took a walk through them, there was the wind and we were alone, all the time. and that was 11 years ago..


Simplicity to me is lost today..

sleepless..

was listening in the middle of the night..wasn't falling asleep for some reason..The listening sorta calmed me down methinks..started when the brother mumbled something in his sleep.."the network cable...hehe.." did he just chuckle? then i heard the 2am routine of the soldiers outside. few words. and one guy takes anothers' place. i listened to their heavy foot steps , i could tell where they stopped . heard a dog bark 2 flats away, a car stopped outside, and the engine didn't stop ...after like an eternity heard a pair of heels going up the stair case outside..after a while a van stops outside. Doors slam, boots..no voices..all going to the flat upstairs..then i heard the dog entering our room. she went up to the brother, sniffed him and went back to my fathers' room. then everything was quiet. ..must have drifted off...4am. The camp next door is fully awake. u hear them laughing, running, slamming doors, their dogs barking,...

The return of the choco pie

well, ok , so it is not the return of the choco pie in exact terms. i wanted to say that i am back, and i have a story of a certain choco pie.

Couple of days back i was rummaging through my room , which is also 'our' room, 'our' being me and my siblings..the room at any given point , if the mother dear has not paid a visit , takes the looks of a, how do i say it, erm...looks of a jungle..if u dare to enter this room, you will be met with books and clothes scattered around the place, various types of electronic devices and a maze of their respective wires, which if u wanted to sort, you would not be able to..this was indeed the making of my dilemma which made me rummage through our wilderness in sheer frustration. I could not find my phone cable. no, i couldn't even find my sisters'. i really badly needed it , probably because i knew i couldn't find it anywhere..

so there i was , throwing books and magazines and whatnots on to the bed and when i could not find it at all, i decided to look ON the top of my brothers' cupboard. well, there was not much on it , to my utter disappointment. what there was, though, was a tin full of coins, i have no idea what it was doing there, and an old guitar case, a bag and....what i thought was an empty box of Choco Pie. i don't know why i did it, but i rattled it, just in case, who knows maybe the cable would be in there..who knows..but when it did rattle, it sounded...like it was heavy.,like there were still Choco Pies in there..shake it once more. yep,. definitely. there is Choco Pie in there. My heart did a double summersault..yay !!! Choco Pie !!!! A hidden treasure !!! let's just hope they have not expired..took 'em out, check for the date, and scream at the top of my lungs.

"Guys , guys , !!!! HA !!!! u will never believe what i just found. On top of this cupboard !!! HA !!! we are going to have Choco Pie. there's two..."

Enter brother. "Put. It. Down. "

"what???"

"i. said. PUT. IT . DOWN!!!!!!! "

"um...why??"

"those are a symbol of perseverance. put them down"

well, it turns out, he has sworn off Choco Pies until the end of his A/L's , which is next month. And these he got after he made the pledge. So he is keeping them. and , and, they have been sitting there for nearly 2 months. imagine that !!!

"Sister, I kid you not. I , will kill you. you touch them, u will die. "

"what if i buy u a new packet of Choco Pies?? can i have one now???"

"NO!!"

"please?? pretty please?? i said i'll buy u ,..."

"NO!!!"

3 days of coaxing, bribing , threating , nothing has worked. and I , the Middle Child , do not want any other Choco Pie either. I want one from on top of the cupboard.